I feel like I have a lot to say when I started. But I end up feeling emptiness. I don't know why, I felt like I've lost the ability to get happy anymore. I tried hard to put myself together, I tried hard to stop thinking about these past trauma. But everything will came back on a random thursday night, seemingly. I don't know what should I do, I don't even know what I could do. I feel helpless, fr I feel helpless. I pray, to whoever can listen, please save me outta this hellhole.